Another Post Where I Look at my Life
Oct 14, 2007 10:14 PM
My latest update contains two Black Canary KO's from World's Finest #248 and #262. I also added two other scenes.
So it seems like I have sort of lost interest in sleepy stuff, but that's not really true. It still crosses my mind daily. I'm just so busy and I am coming across less and less material. Some people sent me some cool scans though. I just don't have the fire in me to look for sleepy scenes anymore. It's so hard to update this site because, well, I don't know what to talk about. I don't want to talk too much about my life, but even my life is boring as hell.
Yeah, I am still seeing that girl; R.E. is her name. Remember how I told you she has a boyfriend already? Despite that, we still hang out. On Tuesday I bought her lunch and we went to her place. We listened to music and played DDR. Today she also called me. I wish I knew what was going through her mind. Maybe she actually loves me, but is too afraid to break up with her current boyfriend. Maybe she just wants a close friend. I wish I knew her motivations for calling me and hanging out with me. Is it because she is lonely? She tells me that most of the time she just sits in her room and plays World of Warcraft. Whenever I see her she is just by herself. When she is not playing video games usually she is sleeping. She told me how she slept for 24 hours straight yesterday.
I admit, I am attracted to her. I can't stop thinking about her. But, I know I will probably never HAVE her. And whenever that crosses my mind, it's so depressing because me and her are like a perfect match. In all the years of my life I have never gotten this close to a girl. Sometimes, it gets so depressing to the point where I want to go buy some alcohol and just drink my problems away. But a few things are stopping me:
One, I am not 21 yet.
And two, my life is like perfect right now. Even though I am kind of lonely in life, my life fucking rocks. I have everything I could possibly want. I have a job, a bright future, superfast internet, an Xbox 360 with Guitar Hero II (and Halo 3), a 22 inch HD monitor, a successful website, and fantastic juggling skills. I have all these things, who cares if I don't have a REAL girlfriend right now? One day, I will be so freaking rich and successful girls will be begging to go out with me. Love is something you can't really predict. It's something that just happens naturally I guess.
One day I will look back on my blog posts and laugh at how naive I was. I like girls alright, but I think I enjoy watching them sleep more.